Your leaving caused so much pain but as time goes by I am gradually learning that thinking of you’re only a waste of time. I no longer hoping that you will come back and understand how much value you have lost after breaking up with me.
I’m sorry, but I can not miss you. I am now ok to be alone in my room without your presence after Port St Lucie Rat Removal. I am happy lying on my bed without the warmth of your body because I no longer miss your kiss when I feel lonely.
Every time I touch my throat, I no longer missing the warmth of your lips on it. I am at home now to be by myself. I was comfortable in the shadow of the darkness after turning off the light with no arms hugging my body. I feel much adore compare when I am at your side. I am experiencing a true love that enough for me to be emotionally secured compare when you are at my side.
When I wake up, I feel sad. Every time I see myself in a mirror, I am seeing a person I have lost when I chose to love you. The person that I am seeing now is far from what I used to be, and I am deeply grateful to you. After you left me, I can see clearly and become a version of myself that I never knew I could be.
Gone are the days when I am crying in my room praying that you will come back. Gone are the days when I am waking up in the middle of the night feeling the severe loneliness because you are not on my side. Gone are the days when I wake up in the morning that I do not want to get up and show up because I feel like the world betrays me.
There are no days anymore I was staring blankly on our bed thinking that you are there grinning at me. No longer that my knees are shaking while bathing at the bathroom and the water in the shower keeps rushing in like the constant flowing of my tears on my face because of the heaviness that I have felt whenever I miss you. No more days when I cannot eat alone because I needed you to prepare my own meal like what you always did when we were together.
I stop myself to miss you because that’s the right thing to do. When I did this, things slowly unfold. I have seen the stupidity which I became because I choose to love you. I understood how you’ve turned me into a person I am. I dropped to you and you decide to fall out of love.
The power of your kiss has no longer has an effect on me unlike before that I have lost in wilderness each time we are kissing. I am totally free from you. What I remember the most now is how lies comes out to your lips. How your lips capable of passionately touching my body but in the back of your mind you are thinking of someone else I’m imagining how your lips speak adoration when we made love but these words you have said aren’t meant for me.
I am no longer missing you and I am truly glad you are gone. I am contented now to be on my own. I am much comfortable sleeping alone. I’ve got more time to be on my own. Your absence did not matter anymore. I’ve found out that I could become happier without you on my side. I learned to free myself from the feeling feelings we’ve shared together. You doesn’t matter anymore because what I believing is myself.
I no longer miss you. I am thinking of you not because I love you but because of the lesson that you give to me.
Kiss me again and again but the same love we’ve shared before has no more there. I no longer miss your lips because I moved on.